February

Well, it is the end of Feb. We got girl scout cookies in. So I haven't been following the 21 day fix diet. I have been working out though. I got Piyo. Its a great workout. Love it.
My problem is FOOD... So I will spend this weekend prepping for the start of Round 3. Round 2 was a bust. I lost only 2 inches and gained 5lbs. Diet is my biggest challenge. I'm too lazy to cook during the day. I would rather not eat than to cook. Need to KISS. I did the fix to a T when I got it. So I know I can do it again.
My husband just thinks I don't care. In some ways I don't, but I do want to lose weight and get healthy but I just don't want to give up all the EASY things to eat. I would rather have pizza when I don't feel like cooking because its easy. I'm tired of cooking and everyone tells me its gross. Its the same crap we ALWAYS eat. Kids, they can be a pain sometimes.
So here's to a better month next month. Its only 21 days for the fix, I can do 21 days. Can I?  I know I can but do I really have the motivation to do it... Time to get serious about this. Who am I kidding?!? Over hauling everything I guess. ALL JUNK FOOD WILL BE GONE. Hiding the cookies etc. I will tell hubby to keep the stuff away. Not fair to have it in the house because I cant help myself. If its there I will eat it. Need to put into place safety nets to keep me on the right track. I have a vacation coming up in June. Would like some new clothes to wear for it. Also have my surgery next summer. I need to be healthy and at my goal weight. But it seems like its not set in stone because I had this before and it blew up in my face. So its not really something I can look forward to. I need to get a concrete plan in place to do this. I feel like I am just getting fatter and fatter. I just want to cry. But on the other hand I feel like certain parts of my body are tightening up. Maybe stepping on the scale this morning was a BAD idea. It is the end of the round of the fix. I know my diet hasn't been that great. So I SHOULD have know that I was not losing weight. Now I am bummed out. oh well. its only my fault. No ONE else's. Cant blame anyone but myself.
Sad thing is I KNOW that diet is a huge factor in why I am fat. I need to clear my head of this and reprogram myself into getting it under control. Time to ask for help. I don't over eat, I just eat the wrong things. And I also don't eat regularly. Big problem. Slow ASS metabolism. Ne who, I shall update in time.
Happy Spring. Hope everyone is thawing out and ready for the sun shine and pollen.

I need to update on my PITY PARTY:
I am keeping a journal of this year. I went back to the beginning. I am down 9.5 inches and only up by 1 lb. So its not as bad. Stupid scale. Ne who... I am taking that lb and putting it on my muscles. my arms have gained .5" each. as well as the rounding of my shoulders. I am a little bit ok with how it all came out.

Another round of 21 day fix finished

I finished my first round of 2015 of the 21 day fix.
I lost about 4lbs and 7.5 inches total. I gained .5 inches in both my biceps. Not too sad about that.
I didn't adhere to the meal plan like I was suppose to which might be the reason behind the low weight loss numbers. I will take any weight loss as a positive.
I purchased Piyo and it should be here Monday. I will continue to do 21 day fix in addition to Piyo. I have about 4 months left until my vacation and I want to be at least 30lbs lighter. The next 60 days I will focus on my nutrition and my diet. I am keeping track of days that I exercise. I am also limiting my sugar intake as well. Sugar is my main problem with gaining back weight lost. My mini goal is 205. I am hoping to be close to 200 by my birthday. I would love to be 199 by then. I shouldn't be this high again but I just didn't keep up with the weight loss at the end of last year. boo on myself. Now time to move on.
Reward for making my mini goal of 205 will be another workout shirt. I am going to get Turbo Fire for my birthday in April.
So the meals that I will have:
Breakfast will consist of oatmeal and a fruit, Lunches chicken brown rice, broccoli, and dinner will be something similar to that. Will exchange out the rice for sweet potatoes. Snacks will be fruit.
Will check in once I have gotten piyo with what I think of the workout.
Wish me luck.

2015 Goals

Thinking about this year!
I want so much stuff. I want to be at goal weight which is 130-140lbs. Starting the new year I was 218. I am currently at 211.
So my goals are

• to lose 7lbs a month! Seems reasonable, right?! So if I go this route at the end of 2015 I will beat goal.
• wear a size 8 comfortably in any brand, not just the lee jeans from Wal-Mart. which are my favorite.
• get ready for my surgery summer of 2016.
• enjoy my girls more which means patience.
•  be able to say I stuck with something
• to run and not just WOG!!! (walk/jog)
• run in the color run and other marathons
• have friends that aren't my kids, mom or husband (not very high on the list) Facebook friends: some of these people are great. They know who they are.
• when I see 189 on the scale to not freak out and put on the weight
• I want to have some restraint when it comes to desserts and junky snacks.
• I want more husband/wife time this year. I feel like I am just a mom and maid.

I have more but need to add later...

Happy 2015 everyone!

Diets I have tried

HCG Drops: lost weight fast GAINED it all back and then some after stopping.

Atkins: didn't lose weight. Low carb isn't good for me.

Refirm: this is from complete nutrition... EXPENSIVE. I didn't lose anything. waste of money

Carb Cycling: Good plan. Lost weight. wasn't hungry. Will probably be my life long plan once I get to goal weight.

 It Works supplements and wraps... The wraps help with tightening the skin, not for weight loss. I tried Thermofit... not a good thing for weight loss, the fat fighter is a good supplement but I wouldn't rely on this to lose weight, hair skin and nails this one is good.. but you can get something similar for cheaper at Wal-Mart, the new you this gives me terrible sleep, the defining gel, I have this... I don't use it religiously so I cant say for sure if it works. This stuff gets expensive and its like you have to stay on it forever to get any real benefits. ( the hair supplement not included in this, but at $33 or more for a months supply, I would rather get mind from Walgreens or Wal-Mart).

Dexatrim 7: I cant find this stuff at Wal-Mart anymore. It was a good one for energy and to make you sweaty buckets.

Xpel: water pill from GNC. I like this one!

The new Hydroxycut: Nothing be fat waste of money

B4: preworkout: I like this one. GNC. But Blueberries cause a flushing that feels like you are sun burnt on your face.

Hollywood 48 hours diet: juice fast, works. Just cant eat anything. If you do this make sure you stay home both days. You'll feel terrible. But you'll lose anywhere between 5-10lbs. Just don't gorge yourself afterwards because suffering for 2 days wouldn't be worth it.  LOL

21 day fix: Beach body program, I am not a coach so I am not selling anything. I don't use Shakeology. Too expensive and tastes gross (chocolate). I do however like this program. The containers help with portions and it also gives you the total amount of containers for your weight. The work outs are really good except YOGA. I DONT like Yoga.

Since my gym membership is up next month I will be buying more of the programs to do at home. (I HAVE BB COACH) On my list are: piyo, les mills pump, turbo fire, the extra part of the 21 day fix, 21 day fix extreme, and others as I build my endurance. We also want to gather home gym equipment.

I have tried almost everything... Not much works except for clean eating and exercising.

Wow. 2 years since I last posted.

Well I decided that I would do this blog thing again. I have been writing in a notebook for my weight loss journey. I have been trying to lose weight for awhile. I cant seem to get it under control. I read a blog post about why people don't succeed. He said that we blame others for why we are over weight. I think I used to but I KNOW it wasn't anyone's fault but my own. I gain a bunch of weight when I got with my husband 14 years ago. I use to be able to eat most anything and not gain weight because I was always walking or riding my bike to get where I wanted. I didn't eat a lot of potatoes unless they were French fries from the Krystal's covered in chili and cheese YUM!, I didn't drink milk or real butter and I didn't have someone to take me where I needed to go until I was with him. No drivers license or car. So the weight slowly packed on. So I have been struggling in vain to lose weight.
   BUT its not his fault. He can eat anything and not gain any weight. Sucks, right!? So I don't blame him. I blame myself.

2013







 I got a gym membership and trainer. I built a lot of muscle mass which increases your weight. Which is fine. I was getting rid of fat but putting on muscle so I was weighing about the same but my clothing size gets smaller.  I like working out. Especially weight training. But the going to the gym is what gets me. I discovered Carb Cycling which seems to work.

2014

 halfway into 2014, my trainer quit. BUMMER! I still had another year of my gym membership so I kept going reluctantly to the gym. I basically got lost in my goals. I also made a plan in 2013 to have cosmetic surgery: breast reduction and tummy tuck in 2014. Well my husband needed to use our taxes to fix his teeth. So that end reward was ripped away which caused me to really go off track. Disappointment doesn't even hit how I felt.  21 day fix was something I picked up and I LOVE this program. learning the right portions and foods to eat helps me since DIET is my biggest problem.
During this year I was able to get to 188!!! I was also in a size 10 and medium shirts. I was so close to being in a size 8 jeans!! I was stuck in the 190s FOREVER. But I have realized once I get to the 180s I think I freak out and stop and gain back the weight. So I think I will just not think about it. I need to weigh myself to keep track of progress but I will only write the number down. I think I will enlist my husband to write it down once I get back to the 190s and then hide it with the date. I don't know. Need to figure out how to NOT freak out. So much stuff happened in 2014. well not A LOT of stuff, just BIG stuff. My oldest started Kindergarten and my baby started preschool. We BOUGHT our first home in August too. So from August until Dec. 31, I gained back all but 10lbs that I lost over the course of 2 years (30lbs). SAD doesn't even begin to describe how this makes me feel.

2015

Now we are in a new year. I made resolutions. Yes, I just said that. Jan 1st I started a detox of sugar. NO sugary junk! The withdrawals were terrible!!! Headaches were the worst!. Once 2 weeks passed by I was beginning to feel better. I started my second round of 21 days fix. This round is the 5th do over of the second round!!! Crazy!!!

I am also officially over the 1 year mark of no soda! NO diet and no regular soda. I also do not use any sweetener in my iced tea. I drink mostly water too. Ever now and then I want a coke or Pepsi but I just don't give in. For the first time in forever I have stuck with something.

Last year, I learned a lot about people I thought were my friends. This isn't the case. I was used. I tend to know when I am being used but I was so desperate for friendship I made a mistake. Wasted money. Luckily I made a portion of the money wasted back. I won't let this happen again. If it means that I am lonely then so be it. My family's financials are more important than friendships.

Last year I also started my daughters Daisy Troop. So fun!!! All the girls and the parents are great.

 

So there you're caught up on my journey.